As much work as you have done I would find what you want. I am a merle girl myself - having aussies and all - but it is not for everyone. Both my pems are red and white and I adore them but they do have a lot of sass. You need to get what feels right and my heart sank for you. I was so excited when you said she had them. i am sure you feel a lot of emotional let down but once it clears you will make a good decision I am sure.
